My foot hurts & my "twin"

As I'm typing this, my foot is on my computer desk. It's quite a sight. Apparently the doctor thinks I popped a blood vessel in my foot this morning. So now the bottom of my foot and side of it is all swollen and bruised (isn't that nice to know?) As a result of my inability to move much the next few days, expect quite a bit of blogging. I love just walking around at random places like stores, or at the mall, so me being stuck laying down is probably going to drive me crazy. It's already gotten a bit annoying.

Since I mentioned the word "annoying", I'm going to talk about another thing that's rather irritating: the fact that everyone thinks my sister and I are twins.

Most people would wonder why I find that kind of annoying. Some of the time it doesn't bother me at all. I think the reason that it does is that my sister is four years younger than I am. True story: at my old job, my sister came in to see a movie. She comes walking up to the concession stand that I was working at that night. Once she leaves, my co-worker says all serious "Is that your older sister?" GAHHHHH! It wouldn't be so bad if people hadn't told me I have a baby face. I think my face looks appropriate for my age, but I never thought I looked younger than I do. So frustrating. When I post a couple of prom pictures, you guys can tell me the truth about my babyface features. I just need to upload the pictures which I'll probably do later.

Don't kill me.

I feel sooooo bad I haven't blogged in who knows how long. I actually feel kind of embarassed. But before you guys kill me for not posting in FOREVER, I'll update you on everything I've been up to.

I doubt anyone remembers, but I mentioned a few times I didn't get into the university I had dreamt of going to since I was really young. Well, turns out I didn't get in because of a GLITCH in the computer system. Yes, I didn't get in because of a bug in their computer. I won't go into details of exactly what happened, because that would take like a hour to explain. I was pretty upset. But if there's one thing that I've learned in this adventure called life it's that things happen for a reason.

At that point, I just decided to go to my local community college for a few years since it would be a cheaper alternative to going away (my original first choice college was also in my hometown). I'm not gonna lie, I was a little bummed about the whole thing. I felt like I had worked so hard and it was all for nothing. Well on the community college's website I found a scholarship that would give me a free ride to their school. I applied and I thought I actually had a good chance at getting it.

I was wrong. I didn't get it. Not only did I not get into a university I thought I had a good chance of getting into, I couldn't even get a scholarship for a community college. I'm not trying to insult anyone or anything with the whole community college thing, but I felt ripped off and felt like a loser (as stupid as that sounds now).

Basically all of this led to me being really down for a few months. Things were really rough and I was miserable. The thing that kept me going was the fact that I was almost done with high school.

Things kind of sucked for a while, but it seems like they're turning around (I hope I don't jinx it). I ended up getting other scholarships through my high school and through other foundations that the community college, so I have enough money to pay for my first year. That made it a little better. I quit my terrible job. That also made things a little better. I got my license (FINALLY) last week, and that definitely made me happy. And I graduated this past weekend. I am so glad high school is over, it hasn't even sunk in yet.

I'm trying to think of other things to update you guys on. Hm..I went to my high school prom. Parts of it were fun, but the actual dance was boring. If you guys wanna see pictures of my dress, I'll post them.

I suppose that's it for now. I hope a few of you guys are still at least subscribed to my blog after my long period of absence.

Spring Break (almost)

Again, I apologize for not posting in weeks. I have been super stressed out beyond belief the past few months, especially the last few weeks. I have like three exams coming up in the next month, and a bunch of school stuff due this week. And apparently I owe four gym classes. I'm still debating on whether or not I should make them up or not. I'll see how tired I am this week.

It seems like I'm so close yet so far from graduating. These past couple of months have been dragging on and on and on. I've had a lot of work to do, mostly just last minute stuff before exams that approaching rather quickly. Hopefully after this week it will be smooth sailing since I'll only have one marking period left. I've become a major slacker the past few months and I'm not proud of it. I've been going through a lot but still, I feel bad I've been putting stuff off. Luckily spring break is next week so that will give me some time to relax.

Anyways, I have to go to work in a little bit so I need to eat before I pass out from being so hungry. I know this is a short post but I plan on doing some major blogging next week while I'm off (and hopefully some driving practice too-although I've been doing that sort of regularly lately).

My crazy life

Things have been a little stressful the past few days for me. I got sick (ok, maybe I was just overstressed and needed to stay home) on Thursday and Friday. So between some makeup work, regular schoolwork, and my job I have been running all over the place. So many things are coming up-I have exams for some of my classes in April and May (they are classes similar to AP classes so they're college level) and then there's prom (I've decided that I might go) and trying to get my license and other things I just can't remember at the moment because my brain is too full.

Progress on my driving skills: I drove a few times today. Once to the mall, and home (in the dark!) from my local Toys R Us. My mom said I'm doing pretty good and that I only made a couple of small mistakes. When I was coming up a street that's really narrow and on a hill, she said I got a little close to a parked car. Another thing was that when I was turning into my driveway she said I was kind of pulling in from the left lane which I know is bad, but I live on a dead end street and nobody was around. Anyways, I feel like I'm doing well with driving as a whole, I just have to get used to the little rules of the road. I'm already feeling more comfortable on the road. The first year or so I had my permit I was really scared to drive, especially in busy areas. I would get really nervous driving on the highway. But ever since August or so some of that fear has gone away. I'm feeling better about it so I feel that I'm making good progress.

I should probably go finish my calculus homework (by the way, I HATE calculus). For some reason a lot of it just doesn't click for me. Oh well. I'm trying but at this point I'm just looking forward to graduation.

Oh, I almost forgot (well I didn't forget, I'm just trying to forget about it) the reason I didn't get into my top choice school was because of a computer glitch. I was upset when I heard about it, but I think all of this happened for a reason. It's really made me rethink my potential major (I wanted to go pre-med or pre-dental since I was about 13) but I feel like that's not what's going to make me the happiest. I'm a little annoyed that I took all of these classes in high school that would have prepared me for this path, but that's the way it goes. I'm about 99% I'm attending a local community college, and I applied for a scholarship (pretty sure I mentioned this in a recent post). Just waiting to hear back. I think eventually I'd like to transfer and major in accounting and/or business. Not sure which yet, but that's what I think I'm going to do. Opening my own business has always been a dream of mine. So why shouldn't I follow it? It worse comes to worse I'll have a good major to fall back on. I'll just have to see where life takes me. I feel like maybe things will start to fall into place a little. (Let's hope)

Quick update/rambling thoughts

It's getting a little late where I live but I thought I would do just a quick post. Ok it's not really that late, but I've worked the past three days (Saturday and Sunday I had like eight hour shifts both days) and with daylight savings I'm pretty tired. Anyways...

I'm doing pretty good on keeping up with my driving practice. I drove to work yesterday and to and from work today (first time driving in the dark). My dad kind of has some weird phobia about letting other people drive while he's in the car. It makes him nervous my mom says. So everytime my mom takes me somewhere she lets me drive. I'm going to REALLY try to get my license by the end of April. I've said it before but I'm really going to try this time. Thank you to everyone who commented on my last post with words of encouragement :) it means a lot.

Another thing that I've been working on lately is standing up for myself. It's not that I'm overly shy, but people usually see me as polite and kind of reserved, which I've figured out seems to make me an easy target. I'm usually quick to help people so others are quick to take advantage of me. When someone makes a little comment or joke at my expense I usually just shrug it off and laugh because I'm typically not one for confrontation. Not anymore. I've realized enough is enough. I don't mind being nice and it takes a lot to push me to the edge, but I've started to stand up for myself more. I've done it multiple times in the past couple of weeks, and people have really started to notice. Some people don't necessarily like the fact that I'm doing this (especially one of my extremely rude managers at work-I kind of told her off when she was making me stay late to do EVERYTHING by myself the other day) but whether they like it or not, I'm tired of being the person everyone expects to do everything. I feel a lot better now that I've started sticking up for myself more.

Other random things that I've done in the past few days include trying hot chicken wings. I love chicken wings and I usually get the medium. Since I've been on a mini path of more self discovery (or whatever you wanna call it) I decided to order something I don't usually get. They were alright. They were almost so hot they didn't have a taste to them. Another thing that I tried was this new hair stuff that I got for free with a coupon at Victoria's Secret (I know my few guy followers will just love hearing about my hair habits haha) I have extremely dry, frizzy, difficult to manage hair. But this straightening/shine spray works wonders. I kept running my hands through my hair, I just couldn't believe the difference. I know this probably isn't the most fascinating topic to most, but I'm tired. I'll probably go get ready for bed now, so goodnight to my nine followers (so excited people are actually following my blog and reading my posts!)

Semi Embarassing Fact About Me

For this post, I've decided to share something that I find kind of embarassing about myself. It's really starting to bug me, and I hate how people constantly ask me about it. Ready for this?

Ok, my embarassing fact is that...


I don't have my driver's license.


There. I said it. I am a high school senior and do not have my driver's license. While most people would think this is a stupid thing to be embarassed about, it seems like a big deal to me. Deep down I know that in the big picture of my life this is probably a small thing to be embarassed about. Because when I finally get my license, I know that I'll look back on this and laugh. When I'm fifty years old, it won't really matter that I got my license when I was 18 instead of 16. In fact, a lot of people would probably think it's good that I'm taking my time learning to drive so that when I'm actually out on the road alone, I know more of what I'm doing.

I actually know a few other people my age who still don't drive. Personally I don't find it to be a big deal, but it seems to be a big deal to other people. For the most part I don't really care about what other people think, but when I'm constantly being questioned about it, it gets annoying. I don't mind when people ask why I don't have it yet, because they're probably just curious why I've waited. But when they start acting like I'm some kind of bizarre freak it starts to get irritating.

To be honest, I'm not really sure why I don't have my license yet. I've had my permit for about a year and a half now. One of the reasons I still don't have it is probably because I have a winter birthday, so it's made it harder to get my license. I got my first job last summer so it was tricky to schedule the appointment. It still is due to the fact that I find out my work schedule for the week a few days before I'm actually supposed to work. Another reason is that my dad, who is usually not that overly protective, has this weird phobia of other people driving while he's in the car. I think he thinks that at least if something happens, it's his fault and he feels that by some chance he could have controlled it. Another reason I haven't gotten it is because the parking situation at my school is terrible. You have to run outside during your class and put quarters in the parking meter every two hours. It's either that or park three blocks away, which doesn't sound too convenient to me.

Overall, not having a license really hasn't negatively affected me yet. The only time it gets a little annoying is when I have to take a break at work, but usually for that I ask ahead of time so my parents can grab me something to eat. It doesn't seem to be too inconvenient yet.

The only thing I'm a little worried about is my state required driving class that I took expires in July. So I have about four months to get my license. I'm really going to try and practice once the snow clears up since it's harder to learn to parallel park and k turn in the snow. I'm really going to try. I truly hope I don't have to sit through the five hour class again, because it was torture.

I know that on the day of my driving test, I'm going to be a nervous wreck. It doesn't help that I have a lot of other things coming up in the next few months. Now I'm wishing I hadn't procrastinated on this and done it sooner.

We'll see how this goes.

Vinylmations and more snow

So lately all that's been going on in the smallish town that I live in is that it's been snowing like crazy. My school district has averaged about a snowday every week or two. Not that I'm complaining or anything. It has given me more time to devote to my most recent obsession...Vinylmations.

I realize that most people will probably be confused about what this is, so I'll post a picture right here:

The picture above is of the Toy Story Vinylmation collection. I'm not sure why these little plastic characters fascinate me so much. I went to Disney a few months ago and really miss it, so maybe it's my way of remembering a really fun trip. Since my Disney trip, I've been to a sort of local mall (that's about an hour and a half away) a few times, and on my most recent trip up there, I picked up a few of these. Mine weren't from the Toy Story set (which is a set I'd like to get soon) but they were still cute. Basically what it is is you pick a box and won't know which design you get until you open it. At first I thought the whole thing was kind of silly, but over time the idea of it grew on me and I caved in and bought a few on my last trip to the mall. I've been collecting for about a month and am too embarassed to say how many I've acquired at this point (I'm at a "crucial saving point" according to my dad). I've always been bad at saving money. At least I saved some of my birthday money. He should be proud of that.

Since I know my pointless collection rant will bore most of the people who read this, I'll discuss what else has been going on in my exciting life. I'm about 95% sure where I'm going to college. It's actually a community college, which I wasn't originally planning on going to. I applied for a scholarship so hopefully I'll get it (fingers crossed). It turns out that the university I applied to originally had a "glitch" in their computer system so that's why I didn't get it. The university as a whole seems kind of stuck up anyways. I'm probably better off not going there.

That's basically all that's been going on with me. What's been going on with my seven or so followers?